Atheist,Christan's,Methodist,B… a devil worshiper my girlfriend goes to church of Christ.?

I tell her i'm a devil worshiper but she laughs at me and tell me im the sweetest man she as ever met and sings all these love songs like the one by Donna Fargo (I'M the happiest girl in the whole USA),and BILLY CURRINGTON,(MUST BE DOING SOMETHING RIGHT),and Braid Paisley(Shes ever thing) what is the problem that she cant see the bad in me.I'M a SINNER a drug user and she don't do this crap and i love doing it and i will never quit doing drugs i hurt to much i was ran over by a car and truck.I don't and wil or would not let her use the drugs .WHAT SHOULD I DO?OH AND THEY IS NO SURGERY THAT CAN BE DONE TO FIX MY PAIN